As I sat down tonight, trying to whip out some Instagram captions for the rest of the week, some thoughts about my life starting flowing through my head. As I was typing out these thoughts, I felt a tug on my heart to blog about it instead of just writing a quick caption, only being seen by a few, and lost in the scroll of social media.

My whole life, I have always looked towards the “what is next” part of life. There has always been a roadmap of where to go next and what to do, and I always knew the “next step” in life. Once I had my daughter, I didn’t have anymore roadmap left. I finished school and got a Bachelors in Public Health, but never felt right about finding a career in that field in this point of my life.

I am the type of person who thinks “the grass is green wherever I turn, and I want to go see all of it”. In terms of careers, I love my life as a photographer and want to continue that passion of mine. But I could also see myself in SO many other roles, such as a nurse, a therapist, midwife, entrepreneur, teacher, even accounting. You could literally name almost any profession and I could probably find a way to picture myself in that role.

Trying to decide “who I want to be when I grow up” has left me feeling really anxious for my future. What if I invest all this time and money to go back to school and I hate it? What if I choose the wrong career for me? The list could go on and on.

However, as I was sitting here thinking about it tonight, I realized that I have been focusing so heavily on what I’d like my future career life to look like, that I have lost sight of who I am now. 

I am a wife and a mother. I have an incredible family and share one of the most important roles of raising our daughter with my husband. I am a photographer, an entrepreneur. I am also a lifelong learner, constantly growing and changing, becoming a better human. 

I love my life. And I love who I am. 

I think I will always strive to become a positive light in this world, and I really hope that my education will lead me down a path to do so. 

If you are feeling “stuck” right now, not sure what to do next with your life, I want you to know that you are not alone. But I also want you to know that where you are right now is enough, it’s beautiful, and you are living the dream your younger self envisioned. So don’t forget to enjoy this season of life.

All my love,

Keli